Funk

The last few days I have been in a funk.  It started when I was in Boone.  I went there to spend time with my family and ended up spending about half the time alone.  I had one really good day with my sister we went shopping, had lunch, and then I went to dinner at her house.  It was really fun.  The rest of the time everyone was busy with something.  And I ended up doing so much waiting and then feeling just sad that I was there to visit and just sit there.  I didn't go and see any friends and I felt a little like it was for me at least a waste of my time beside the time I spent with my sister.
And I feel bad because before I left home I was exercising and eating pretty good and on my way to getting the body I feel good in.  And now I am skipping workout cause I am tired and eating whatever cause I am hungry and in the back of my head freaking out because it all could be pregnancy related.  And that is the last thing I need right now.  I just need to get my priorities in order.  I spend way too much time feeling depressed and wasting time.  I just want to be happy and reach my goals.  Like I need to focus on my photography and my health currently.  Doing only those thing that work toward those goals (besides the everyday necessary things and spending time with my family).
I was reading  an article the other day about about lady who was feeling sad and so she wrote down everything that made her happy and why.  I want to do that and focus on those things and try to focus less on the things that are troubling me.  And I figure the happier I get in the other areas of my life the more I can help the areas that are troubling and maybe even easier to fix.

 I am intensely worried about Leah and Jason and their family currently with all the things that are happening with them and I hope that maybe I could be a support to them. 

Church is always a stress to me currently.  I believe in it for the most part but I struggle with so many ideas and wonder if I would be better in it or out.  And I am extremely worried about removing my kids from it being that I would have to be the main source of religion.  I have to admit to myself that it is difficult for me to get into something and make it a habit.  Even when it is something that I really want.
I need to research other religions and find all the good points about them and teaching from the good principals of the church and the scriptures.  Also teaching them the life lessons that are necessary to bring them happiness and a fulfilled life like schooling, financial success, balancing in your life, etc.
I have to make a plan for them and myself.